oh this thing called love...

I've been flooded with emotions all day today. It started early this morning, was intensified one I got to church, and has been sucking the quirky life out of me all day. I am begrudgingly romantic. I hate the mushy stuff, but at the same time just cannot get enough. It's wild. Have you ever been in one of those entanglements [as I am now calling them,] resolved to go your separate ways, but find that every so often something... SOMETHING... something... has this way of seeping into your sensory nodes and taking you back to when things were happier. Day one.. That special birthday.. you all's first time.. just something happier.. That time when you first saw the light. Suddenly, all the bad never happened. The lies were never told. The fights weren't that serious, etc. etc. After all the progress you'd made, the walls you'd erected, you are caught like a deer in headlights.

Today I had a revelation—a pseudo spiritual catharsis. Let's call it a Breakthrough of sorts. Changed my life. ...for today at least.

1. Simply, Love ≠ Happiness.
2. Adore no iguale la felicidad.
3. Lieben Sie gleicht Glück nicht.
4. Aimer n'égale pas le bonheur.

I wanted to make sure I covered all my basses.. you know.. for the full edification of the body. I have friends who are allergic to stuff, but they love it. Despite the reaction, however mild, they calculate the consequences and succumb to their "love" irrespective, of the inevitable side effects. Love is irrational. Love is painful. Love, sometimes is not reciprocated. Seems like Love of typically not appreciated, or understood until things change. Love, unfortunately, often comes to an end. All this said, isn't love grand?

::Listening to: Brandy's Long Distance::

The Break Up Tape

So be honest... we all have one.. the infamous break up tape (or break of CD for you rich folk..) As I grow older, I am finding that unfortunately I may not be suited for relationships. The ones I want don't want me and I seem to have developed a fan club of undesirables.. funny how that happens. Nice enough people, but no, simply put. Just no. I'm learning how important it is to be true to yourself, period. Stop trying to convince yourself that someone is better than no one because it's not. So as of May 2008 I am happily single and reluctantly celibate!

On to the break up tape.. I threw out my old tape and can't put down Rudy Currence's two projects. If you don't know who he is, get on it peeps. He's so hot. The writing.. the production.. the damn vocals.. geeez! I digress.. Check out the The albums which are both available on iTunes, CDBABY and Amazon.com.

My particular favorites include:

More Thank You'll Ever Know (2003)

8. More Than You'll Ever Know
9. Have I Told You (that I Love You Lately)
11. Carousels
12. Love Song

Here With You (2006)

1. Open
7. Here With You
10. You Bring Me Down
13. Found It
14. Mama's Song
15. Mary Rose

My disclaimer: I do not know Rudy personally and just like his music. Check him out and you won't be disappointed. May the Lord add a blessing to the reading of this blog!